Four years ago, you approached me with a significant request, asking for closure. Initially, I was taken aback, wondering why you would seek closure after eight years since our breakup. I questioned the meaning behind it and the timing, considering our intermittent communication over the years. Eventually, you simply expressed a desire to start a new chapter in your life. Although you didn’t specify the nature of this chapter, I understood the implications. It frightened me because I wasn’t prepared to let go. Throughout all those years, I held onto hope, wishing we could reignite what we once had and make things right this time. I never grew tired of pleading for another chance, yet you remained resolute in moving forward without me.
The pandemic prevented us from seeing each other for a couple of years. While you continued to reject my pleas for reconciliation, I focused on self-improvement. I dedicated myself to becoming a better version of myself for our sake. I wanted you to be proud of me and witness my efforts to earn your love once more. I silently worked on building a successful career, intending to surprise you. However, I received an unexpected shock when a friend informed me of your recent marriage. I was left speechless, flooded with numerous questions. Why? Why so soon? Yet, I realized I had no right to ask.
Subsequently, I contemplated meeting you one last time, to assess if I still deserved a place in your life and if I truly wanted you in mine. Finally, the day arrived when we reunited. Ironically, I still lack an answer. Yet, one thing remains certain—the love we shared was never extinguished; it endures.
Over the years, I’ve come to realize my selfishness, both towards myself and towards you. I only considered my own convenience, neglecting your needs. Although there are countless things I wish to express to you, it is best to keep them to myself. What matters most is your happiness and fulfillment. You deserve all the love, care, and respect from the person you chose to spend your life with. Challenges may arise, but I have no doubt that you will overcome them. You are an incredible individual, always remember that. May every memory you create with her bring you solace.
Now, I will let you go and accept that our chapter has concluded. Know that you will forever hold a special place in my heart, and I will forever cherish the goodness you brought into my life.
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